Cracking the Code on ‘Criminal Minds

During the darkest days of the COVID-19 pandemic, nursing faculty member Christine Kaford leaned into gratitude and hope. She teaches students to do the same.

Christine Kaford, CSUF assistant professor of nursing (Courtesy of Christine Kaford)

Looking back now, it feels like a blur. I worked on the front lines as an emergency department nurse when much of the world shut down in March 2020 due to the COVID-19 pandemic. I will never forget the moments of fear, the extensive conversations with nursing colleagues, the lack of planning and the sadness that rapidly spread.

It may have been extremely foolish for me and my colleagues to volunteer to try new practices, technology and more for the first time during a pandemic — but we didn’t have time to consider the risks or benefits.

During the height of the pandemic, I taught clinical rotations and worked as many hours as possible. I did not do it to be a hero, but because both of my parents were immunocompromised and I could not be with them.

There were many instances when I, and other front-line workers, were not welcomed because we were exposed to the very disease that everyone was afraid to be around.

We lost so much during the pandemic, but I choose to focus on what I have gained.

Christine Kaford, assistant professor of nursing

I did not contract COVID-19 until 2021 when I was pregnant with my first child. I was working in triage and felt mild body aches. I was convinced I was tired because I was pregnant. Unfortunately, I tested positive for COVID-19.

Christine Kaford and family (Courtesy of Christine Kaford)

At the time, my husband, a firefighter, was working the Dixie Fire in Northern California. I was alone, pregnant and extremely sick with a low oxygen saturation and an oral temperature of 102 to 103 F. I was barely able to take a couple steps from my bed to drink water or walk to the door to grab food sent by friends and family.

I remember crying a lot. I felt guilty that I got my unborn daughter sick.

My biggest takeaway from the experience is that we will never change until our love exceeds our pain. It was painful to watch the entire world suffer as a result of an unknown virus that quickly surfaced and changed our lives. Rather than focus on resentment or pain, I leaned into gratitude and hope.

I consciously remind myself that I matter. Just as I see my patients as real people who are deserving of care, I too am worthy of care. I remind my students that if nurses do not take care of themselves, their patients and families also will suffer.

Christine Kaford (Matt Gush/CSUF)
CSUF School of Nursing students with Christine Kaford, assistant professor of nursing (Matt Gush/CSUF)

Following the pandemic, I believe nursing has widened the lens to our quality of life, the true meaning of a service occupation, alternative pathways for self-care, improvements in mental health, the importance of community and roles beyond patient care. We are always evolving, moving forward to create a better life for our patients and ourselves.

Today’s nursing education embraces such technologies and innovations as simulation, asynchronous and hybrid classrooms, interactive case studies, and virtual reality. We are beyond the traditional textbook and multiple-choice questions, which is a promising path to ensure students are equipped to step into the field with the foundational clinical judgment and skills required to practice safe, quality care.

As an educator, I am fueled by my desire to advocate for new nurses. I was a new nurse once; I know and will always remember how it felt.

I hope that students never lose sight of the ‘why’ that brought them to our School of Nursing.

Christine Kaford, assistant professor of nursing

My approach to education is rooted in active listening and taking time to understand the aspirations and interests of those who desire a future career in health care. I hope that students never lose sight of the ‘why’ that brought them to our School of Nursing.

My research interests have transitioned to the care of my students. I have had the opportunity to watch the students act with resilience and flexibility. They inspired me to begin a study that explores students’ lived experience in nursing education during the pandemic.

We lost so much during the pandemic, but I choose to focus on what I have gained: A deep respect for my profession and colleagues, and a happy and healthy daughter named Karisa, who is safe and well.

Students gain hands-on experiences in the Nursing Simulation Center (Matt Gush/CSUF)

Christine Kaford is an assistant professor in Cal State Fullerton’s School of Nursing, which is celebrating its 50th anniversary of preparing students to serve in Orange County’s health care workforce. She teaches such courses as Critical Care Clinical Capstone and Nursing Capstone Theory for prelicensure nurses.

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